Living for no reason
Beloved Master, lately I feel the need to die, I feel suffering, and it is this “me” that pops up every day telling me that cannot manage anymore to find a good reason.
But when I feel I am losing myself, a strong fear takes me over…But how is possible to feel love. Thank you from my Heart
First one must be clear that it is the “me” that is required to die, NOT the body.
If the body dies of course “me” dies too but what a waste of what might otherwise be a good life experience.
The message is for the “me” to die INTO Life, to lose itself utterly in the experience of the body/mind and dissolve.
Remember that the “me” is just a concept, a very strong one, that is a thought in the mind and nothing more.
As you say in order for this “me” to survive it needs reasons and purposes etc because without such things it cannot maintain the illusion of itself.
So Life now is asking you to live without reasons and purposes, in the losing of these a deeper peace will reveal itself.
The fear felt is the dying of this “me” concept so let it unfold, it will anyway without the permission of the “me” if it is time for this dissolution to take place.
Much Love to you
What it is shared here is a completely radical and uncompromising message. It has no prescriptions and does not suggest anything to do at all. It does not ask you to be a particular way, but rather that you are not required to be at all.
It speaks about what has always been present and is right now but it was and is completely overlooked. It tries to describe a paradox.
When we are born the sense of separation between the body and whatever surrounds it is not present, then after a few years the identity arises and everyone around you will confirm to you that you are a real person, with free will and choice, that you have to work hard to become worthy, satisfied… you have to make your life work. A feeling of contraction is present and it becomes the centre by which all thoughts, emotions and actions seems to arise from.You are now someone and life is happening to you, you have to defend yourself with threats, you seek pleasure and avoid pain. You really believe that you can do all of these things. We become seekers, looking for something that can fullfill a subtle dissatisfaction, a subtle but deep sense of lack. What this message describes is that the belief of having an identity, a separate me amongst separate others in a separate world is an illusion. There is no one and there never was. Everything just happens and there is no one ever in control of anything.
There is no one right now reading this even if something there is strongly convinced that this is not the case. There is just THIS and it is NOTHING appearing as THIS. This cannot be understood or grasped by the me, but something can resonate there as this is the real nature of what is. In THIS ALL-NESS everything can arise, even the sense that separation is real, and that sense can fall away. There is no need or cause for that to happen. The illusion can remain until death or it can collapse right now.
When this is seen (by no-one) it becomes clear that what we were longing for all along has never gone away. There is just everything and nothing. THIS is pure joy, love and freedom.
Emotions, thoughts, feelings can still arise then in This, but they are not owned by a separate someone. There is no personal suffering any-more, there is just a flow of energy.
The seeing of THIS is not an experience that you can make happen by doing, because in this seeing you won’t be there. THIS does not belong to anyone.
The seeing of THIS, the so called awakening, liberation or enlightenment, can or cannot happen. There is no direction or purpose in LIFE. There is no-one there that can do anything about it. Even when an imagined you feels hopeless and helpless there is only hopelessness and helplessness happening.