Author: Avasa

Between my finger and my thumb

Every sentence is pure freedom and we are called to allow that freedom to enter in our lives. The spaces between the lines in the essays are an invitation for the reader to realize the truth that is behind each paragraph. The conclusion is not at the end but in every understanding that arise during the reading.


“Between my finger and my thumb I held the moon”… This book speaks about a time in which you were not disconnected by what was around you, a time in which the illusion of fear and suffering were not dictating your days and guiding your life. It points to the ever-present possibility to see again what is true of us, right now and arguments that in a sense the only thing stopping this to be recognized it is the illusion of not being so. It guides the reader through and out the many mind’s mazes, showing that nobody is actually ever imprisoned or bounded by anything, not even by the size of a body or the length of a lifetime. This books reveal the absolute freedom of one-Self from any concept or image the mind holds about itself, from one’s own story and dramas, included those desperate ones about enlightenment or self-realization. It states clearly and practically about the fact that nobody is actually here, not even writing these words or reading them right now.”

Shakti Caterina Maggi

Between my finger and my thumb by Bodhi Avasa – click here to download

Satsang in Milan – Italy, April 2009


Avasa: In the same way as if a fish is surrounded by water, a human being is surrounded by truth. The same way as the water around the fish pervades the whole body of the fish, the truth pervades the whole body of the human form. The form itself is a manifestation of truth.

What appears within it as the play of the mind is a manifestation of truth. That which knows of the presence of the body and the mind is the unmanifest aspect of truth. Now it seems strange if we are utterly completely saturated in truth, why truth is sought at all. It is all that exists. Every object in this room is truth manifesting. Every thought that appears in the mind that you imagine maybe to be personal, is the truth manifested. Every feeling that arises as physical or emotional is impersonal. It is the truth manifested. Now clearly if what is being stated here is true, and it is, it would seem futile to seek truth. The body is truth, your mind is truth, the world is truth, and what is manifesting in is the unmanifest aspect of truth. So why the seeking? For some reason we are not able to see directly. What it is we think lies in another moment.

This is because we are not looking in the right place in a sense. We are not focused on what is already present. There is a lot of misinformation about what this thing called enlightenment is, that every human being is seeking, that some of us are aware that we are seeking. Any description would be wrong, because in itself it has no description. Like trying to describe water to a fish that was not aware that it was in the water it was seeking. It was all around it, beside it. Already it’s … . but it has no description. This is why the seeking takes place. Because when the seeking action arises it arises with the intention of finding something. The seeking action ceases to arise when it is realized that there is nothing to find. When it is realized that that nothingness is all around. Both within and without. The body itself is made out of that nothing. Form is emptiness, emptiness is form. The form is the temporary appearance of emptiness, the emptiness is permanent. Which means literally that it is a complete waste of time seeking because you already are what you are looking for. It is not a feeling, it is not a bad feeling it is not a good feeling. The mind doesn’t like that word, ‘nothing’. But the truth is, the truth is nothing. It is not a feeling, it doesn’t have a shape, it has no color, taste or smell, it has no sound. It has no description. It requires something other than the senses of the mind to recognize the truth of oneself. When the truth is recognized, it is not recognized by the mind.

When the truth is recognized it is recognized by the truth itself. It is self confirming. It is strange that it should be self confirming in every single moment. When we claim to be a spiritual seeker what we are actually stating is that we notice that there is a seeking action present in the body. It has always been there. We just suddenly become aware of it. And as a spiritual seeker not knowing what it is we are looking for, we think that the accumulation of knowledge or experiences will at some moment reach its peak and enlightenment will take place. Well this is not true. Any more than reaching of the seventh chakra immediately results in enlightenment. The energy can be at base level, first second or third chakra and enlightenment can take place, because the whole chakra system, all those systems that are based upon gaining knowledge and experience happen in time.

Enlightenment is not the result of time. It is not a product of time. It is the eternal. It is the recognition that what one is, is the eternal. That happen in any moment. We don’t need to add one more experience, or one more word of knowledge to what we already are. In order for this realization to take place. In fact believing we need to go through any system is an avoidance of what can be presently recognized. Whenever realization has taken place, it has always taken place in the eternal moment. Which is this moment that we are in right now. It has never taken place, it has never taken place in the past. It can only take place now. Now is a presence which never changes, which views the world through the senses of the human form. Presence which is eternal. Still unchanging, rested. Not in time, not affected by time. But the witness of time. And this is what is recognized in that moment of realization. The self which is recognized at the moment of realization is the nothing that is looking through the eyes of the form. The eternal nothingness. It was never anywhere than right where the body was in each and every moment. So simple but so obvious when this is seen. I know a few people here in these meetings who have had a glimpse of this and those glimpses will continue to repeat without your help. Also anything you do will not hinder that glimpse returning.

And eventually it will become stabilized, the seeing of this will become permanent. This is the way it takes place. It isn’t the result of anything, it is a sudden insight, the seeing of what lies behind the play in time observing time, it can’t be claimed, it can’t be held onto we don’t need to do that. It is always present, we don’t need methods, we don’t need to do anything. To arrive at it, it is already arrived at. It is what we are. It is the one who is living through these forms right now. … to have improved but it isn’t. It is silent, still, colorless, tasteless, without any smell, without any feeling, we already have it. The mind might tell you another story. It does that, it arises out of this tries to convince itself that it isn’t so. The truth is you cannot get away from truth, you cannot get to it. Because it is already, always has been what you are.

Satsang in Palermo – Italy, June 2006

satsang palermo 2006

Avasa: Of course, you can never remove the fear of death at the level of a concept. The conceptual level is not allowing you to touch it, to taste it, to feel it. The moment that you try to face anything at the level of a concept, you are removing yourself from the perceptual level and you are taking the energy from the sensation at that level, to create the conceptual thinking about it in the mind. It’s a way of avoiding touching, and going through, allowing that totally. All that’s required to do that is to recognize the mechanism that’s in place there. The mechanism is the flicking from the perception level to the conception level. The only thing that you are afraid of – is fear itself. You are afraid of feeling the fear. And it is like you said – you can’t run away from it. At some point you are going to have to say ‘Come, let’s have this, totally.’ You are afraid of experiencing a feeling, just a feeling, it’s not fear, it’s just a feeling, and the mind has stuck a label on it and called it fear. Because the mind knows that, the moment you embrace that fully and go through it, you come out on the other side of death, and you rest in the Eternal, already dead. And the moment that happens, the one that believed itself to be alive, the one that the whole of the psychological mind surrounds, is realized to be just imagination, and it dies. You are actually afraid of getting rid of the one that you imagine yourself to be. When you are ready to do that, it will happen. Otherwise you are just supporting the illusion of the one you imagine yourself to be. You are not something that can die. Once you know that, the fear of death no longer rises in your Consciousness. You might get a good night’s sleep, then.

It’s a feeling that’s all. It’s intense, but if you are willing to embrace it, it’s no longer fearful, even if it reaches the point that the mind would call terror, you would still be willing to allow it to take place, and the moment that you do, you will laugh at the fact that you delayed that moment for so long, because once you have gone through it, you will see it clearly that you are not something that can die, and so there is no longer the fear of dying, because you see it’s just an idea, a concept. You are not something that dies. There’s no way out, you have to embrace it, either while the body is alive or at the moment of death, when you have finally recognized what every other human being recognizes, that you don’t die in the body, because you are Eternal. Why delay it? Encourage it, invite it every morning, invite it every night when you go to bed!

Partecipant: I am terrorized, I cannot sustain this!

Avasa: You can, because this body did! They are all bodies, they can both do ….what one can do another can do. We met a lady who had the same problem, had the same invitation, I would say, and it had eventually lead to her spending two years in a psychiatric ward, and she phoned us up from the psychiatric ward and begged us to go there to speak to her. Instead, she ended up coming to see us. And I kept smiling at her – it was obvious that she was in a very traumatic state. And she said ‘Why do you think this is funny?’ And I said ‘Well, I can see that you have no options left. You have tried running away from it, and the only option left, is one that you, that’s the one you imagine yourself to be, wouldn’t choose any way. And the end result is that you will come to enlightenment.’ She awoke the next morning, she said to me ‘I don’t want to face it, the moment I feel it, I just want to run away from it’. So I said ‘Well, so what’s the alternative?’ I said ‘So, you are going to run away from death by killing yourself? So, guess what’s going to happen in the last five minutes before the body dies?’ She just looked at me and said ‘Well, I can’t do that then, can I?’ I said ‘No, but you can welcome it now and have another forty years of life in the recognition of what you are.’ She was released from hospital the next morning, and we saw her two days later, and she gave satsang for twenty minutes, a lovely smiley lady. Her boyfriend looked a bit shocked though, he didn’t really know who she was. You can run away from it till the day the body dies, and then you are going to have to face it, and so is everyone else here, who hasn’t faced it. What you are doing in this moment is telling yourself through this form, the only option left. No imaginary person is going to choose its own death, which means that you have no options, they take place. Just remember to welcome it and give it a big hug and you will come out the other side, complete with a living form, absent of that you imagined what lived in it. What have you got to loose? (laughing). The only thing that dies is a concept. What you are can never die, because it was never born, it is Eternal. But the imaginary one dies, an idea, a belief, a concept dissolves. Be worth it just to get a good night’s sleep, wouldn’t it? Forget about enlightenment.

Partecipant: I could do it for just sleeping well. I really want to sleep. It is better than living.

Avasa: It depends which side of death …. (laughing)

Partecipant: I thank you for the answer. I feel that I am hopeless.

Avasa: Good, then you have stopped creating ideas about how to run away. And then it can just happen.

Partecipant: I am fixed that I will never die.

Avasa: Good.

Partecipant: I am very worried about it.

Avasa: Well, sorry to tell you, you are right.

Retreat & Fun

When the Divine recognizes to be what is living through all human forms and this is shared verbally or otherwise then celebration happens naturally. During retreats there are moments of spontaneous laughter, shared silence, deep insight and emotional connection with everybody and everything. But most of all a true friendship is lived in a very everyday manner and in some way beyond all the words, the energy, the music, the fun, the message hits home, we are One!

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The desire to let go

desire to let go

If “i” cannot do anything but live spontanously, knwing that this will bring to bad consequences to my life, is anyway “right” doing it? Or is this just another trick of the mind to obtain what it wants?One could say that what is waiting for me is an unhappy destiny as much as the life that i am living?
I want to say that what i could do if i let go would not harm anyone but my ego, but this as a consequence would make suffer the people i love.
Thank u in advance

You would not have time to get worried if it appears suddenly and the mind does not sense it arriving.

You cannot do ANYTHING, this includes living spontaneously, LOL Because there is no you doing anything ever. Maybe a bad consequence would occur and maybe not, this is the mind trying to trap you into identification again. Notice how its stories are always about the future so you get attracted away from the moment.

I would say that actually living in spontaneity can bring only good. This anyway is not about what is right or wrong which is all conditional thinking, it is about what happens HAPPENING! there is no choice and no one to make such a thing. You are not living Life , Life is living you. It always has lived that body and it always will, the apparent you does not even come into the picture except as a thought form arising.

It may hurt others but only their ego can be hurt and as that is the very thing they pray for daily to be released from, why be concerned about their egos? People will go through what they have to go through and that is not your business, if they go through it they too will be released from the ego concept. You cannot protect anyone from themselves. This concern for others is not Love so dont be fooled it is taught conditional behaviour that carries with it a sense of duty.

Anyway if awakening is to take place it will do so and you have no say in it and if those around you react then that is the way it is and is supposed to be, all perfect.
Only egos get hurt, when there is the ability to say YES to life then where is the one that resists, where is the suffering?
You are correct this is the mind trying to trap you into identifying.

Much Love



I hope you die soon!

neve alberi

I am still bottled up in the ego, this i can recognize. I cannot stop (and also there, who would stop to do what?… lets dro it immediatly). I know I am not the bdy/mind but as you see untill this is not seen it is just a menatl trick. in some particular moment i  found myself to feel such feelings of well being and peace never felt before where all other desire could not even have a reason to exist. In those moments happened just when I did not even think about them. Despite i am aware of ths fact, I cannot avoid but insisting in wanting to understand them to make them happen again. I always read your posts and what you say I feel it so close to me that I have the impression to be able to touch it for real, and then I am not able and this provockes in me a strong sense of impotence (and anger at times). Yet I am here, actually I AM NOT in this moment… and it seems Ihave no other choivce but it all happen. A big thank you

So If you are bottled in the ego the ego is separate from you is it not? This is the beginning of recognition.
That is a fact that you cannot drop because there is no you to do the dropping or anything else, the dropping will happen when it happens. The desire for this dropping is the prelude to it taking place and there is no one in charge of that desire either.

It is clear that the body/ mind is an object to this that sees it, what sees the object is always subjective to any object and as the subject it cannot be felt or seen or known in the way we talk about things, it requires a new way of seeing. The trick is coming from the mind as it tries to emulate what from time to time happens there when there is not intentional trying to see this. As you already know the trick does not do the trick does it? LOL

It is clear from your description of those moments that the seeking is not projecting something awaiting in the future that you see this from time to time, what is to be realised from this is that there really is nothing to be done to make those moments one eternal moment.
Yes the mind rests with what is in the moment then, no longer projecting other than what is.
So the desire to understand is arising, it is that way for some and that too is not in anyones control, it is simply happening.
Look at the situation ……. if you can touch it what or who would be doing the touching? It is like trying to kiss your own lips !

What is stated here is seen to be correct there because the mind is already taking time out and in those moments you are THIS, no more no less than it is here. These truly are your message to yourself LOL

Yeh I remember that anger and feeling of not being able to do anything about it, the frustration etc . It is all good stuff ….. when looked back at later LOL
Yes ! you are here ALWAYS, just here.

There is no choice because there is no one to have a choice.
It is a difficult place to be so in the words of Tony Parsons to Richard Silvester just before awakening happened,

With much Love



These last few weeks I have spent time on ebay selling things from the house to empty it ready for a move to wherever existence is taking me and of course things appear that desire tells me I just HAVE to have LOL

Many times in the last moment someone pips me at the post and puts in a bid within one second after mine which is one penny more than my offer and so my MUST HAVE I do not get.
For sure at one time this would have carried with it a feeling that would not have been positive LOL
These days however it is just the way it is !

If I win it is the will of existence and if I lose it is also the same, a thank you arises with laughter.
If you can go to bed tonight accepting with the same attitude the fact that enlightenment did not take place today OR that it did take place then you are in the very best place. You can drop asleep with a thank you to the will of existence.

One thing is for sure that from the ego point of view it is damned if it does’nt take place and it is damned (totally) if it does LOL

Much Love



All is yourself

I agree what you say, in the sense that I know that what you say is part of your experience and is reale, but as much as I mae an effort, I have no idea of what you really want to say, because the form though which One is manifesting (in order words me) is not awakened, otherwise there would be any problem. I accept the fact that there is one Oneness that is manifesting through various forms, but to be able to speak about awakening maybe must be experimented from each various form, otherwise why on a certin point a particular form understand the Reality of what is and instead others keep on being outside of it? It must necessarily happen something in order for this to happen and if it happens for me and you remain in the sleeping, this Onness maybe is fragmented in itself and its complete awakening can happen only in the awakening of “all” forms, through which is manifesting itself. There is just One and this is seen just throughcertain forms, why not by all? Which is the difference between a form and another? The Love of Oneness is manifestiung through the single forms, what has been happening?, if all is already Enlightenment?

If you imagine you are the body/mind you have limited yourself to that way of seeing yourself.
In that way of seeing it appears as if there are many others in many other body/minds
The moment that you see what you actually are it is obvious that there are no others, all is yourself.
So from the point of view where you see yourself as the body/mind separation appears to be true
When one sees oneself without a location one is everything, everywhere, in all things.
This means that one was always the One but did not see this, nevertheless one was and always is this that is in and appearing as all.

In some forms the Self is not recognised because of identification with the body/mind and in some that identification is no longer present.
Which ever is the case it is happening always to the One. There is only the One.


If i imagine to be the body/mind, then you can also imagine of not being it and in THAT CASE I would see Oneness. Then something MUST happen, and who would make it happen? If there is nobody there to do anything? ” When one sees oneself without a location..” WHO IS THE ONE THAT IS SEEING?  My mind (!) cannot do anything but to bow in front of such mystery…

The One that is seeing is not a WHO, there is still in what is said here the concept of someone seeing, there is no one, just seeing happening.
The body is SEEN, the mind is SEEN, but what is doing this seeing is neither the body nor the mind, it is nothing, emptiness.
Of course this is difficult to grasp intellectually, in fact it is impossible to be grasped, it has to be SEEN.
Yes of course you can (and do) imagine yourself to be the body/mind and you can also imagine you are not that but both of those are mind games, they are not seeing. In seeing there is no effort and no one doing it.
No one can make this happen because there is no one LOL I know it is frustrating when you really want to understand it and that is good because that frustration is needed, it is a requirement that brings about the giving up of imagining this can be done by the ego.
When awakening happens it happens, there is no one present to make it happen.
The eye blinks , it happens, it does not require that someone makes it happen.
What is being felt there is happening, if there was someone in control would they choose what is happening, I think not!
A hug